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:: Friday, April 01, 2005 ::

my body turns and yearns for the sleep that won't ever come

it's never over, she's the tear that hangs inside my soul forever

but maybe i'm just too young to keep good love from going wrong.



i hear and see so many strange things. like flashes of darkness, flashes of light. followed nan to parkway today. that's three days in a row. bought green pants from ebase, went to get my prescription for OC, i have to clean the room tomorrow morning. training starts at 12 so hopefully the team is still very motivated and confident.

i'm so tired of waiting around, maybe i'll do the part-time job that moms' friend offered me. waitressing. huh. james will be here in 17 days. fuck, i don't think it's sunken in yet. i am going to see my boyfriend in 17 days. we haven't seen each other since Nov 25 last year. i am pretty darn excited! *giggle* it's like i can't even remember how it was before me n james were dating. i know i'm only 18. but i can't help myself from falling in love now can i?

one day, when me and james are old and deaf, we'll look back on all these events in our lives that were keeping us apart. his fucking fucked up work. hahahaaa.. and my school terms, urrgh. he called earlier la, then we were talking about staying in perth although not in the city itself. i really liked davids' house, with its vintage chandelier, postcard door decorations and naked mannequins.

i have decided to paint my room red. not now of course, prob when parents renovate our home. technically, it isn't my room at all. it's deis' room too but she's moving to australia in august-ish so i will eventually have the room to myself. that means my pink paper lantern goes up and so does my shiny disco ball. and my french cafe posters, gallery exhibition prints and photos. is it just me or has everyone suddenly caught the photography bug.

i remember vaguely.. a handful of keen photo-bugs in KC in my days, *chuckle* i quite like it actually, just haven't got the equipment for it i s'pose. but i steal pretty wicked pictures off the net and mags. i love sticking them all over my wall so much so it appears i may have constructed a shrine; ode to black and white images. oh how the hobbies change,from stamp and sticker collecting.

did i trell you i'm sick? it's fuuucked man, my throat is aching and there's fuck-all i'll be able to say tm.*sigh* i bet you its cos of ko and the alcohol on wed night. i cannot go back to china black for the next umm.. year. hahaa, no la.. i just got so smashed that night. bad one bad one.

i have to decide what to get dei, it's her b'day this month.. i also gotta decide what to get mom and dad cos it's their 26th wedding anni. so sweet right. april also means international film festival!!yaaay!! and start wars is opening soon too, skipedee do dum. oh, pris messaged me a while ago, i wonder how she's doin, we've both been pretty busy, i just haven't found the time to talk to her man..

things to do:
1. confirm booking with hotel intercontinental
2. get james flight details sorted
3. chalet on 4,5,6 april.

ok gtg sleep. taa..
:: krys Friday, April 01, 2005 [+] ::
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fuck i got smashed last night. i am never going to trust marc, diane or deidre when it comes to drinks.
:: krys Thursday, March 31, 2005 [+] ::
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it's my 18th special today. and unfortunately, it's not special. one of those cliched things.. you look forward to it all through your secondary school life and when you get here, you're like,"fuck this isn't much is it."

but that's ok.. listening to jeff buckley.. things have changed quite a bit since my last entry.. james IS coming over. in april. yes that's like a few weeks time. i can't wait til he's here.. he's applying for his passport today during his lunch break. i miss him a lot.. not just as a boyfriend. he is the only person in my life right now that knows about everything in my life. it's so strange, i found old love letters to pris. and i can't remember what it is like to be in love with her. i remember being in love with her now, but not how it feels. i was telling him about how i was so into JC, how i loved playing rugby in 2E2.. how mr lee fell. hahaaa! those were the days aye..

my holidays have finally begun. exams were a killer, i seriously mugged the last three weeks of school. made up for all the times i slacked during the semester. but ok la, i am definitely more confident about my stats, MBS and accounting paper than i was for the mid-sem test(which i truly fucked up)

last night, i was on my bed scribbling and i felt my body swaying.. which was a bit weird i thought i was getting dizzy or something. and then, it happened again but slightly more intense. so i put down my pen and leaned my hand against the cupboard, and then i felt my entire bed shake which fucking freaked me out. so i hopped off my bed and went out to ask dei if she felt it. all i said was," did you feel that?" and she was like yea, everything was shaking wasn't it? dad told us there was an earthquake in sumatra. apparently 8 on e richter scale or something. it was pretty freaky..

i'm back doing cheerleading again, lol.. no la.. just helping out.. but it's nice, refreshing i guess. cos i haven't been doin it for so long.. now my arms are aching from the dancing. i told james about me getting back into cheerleading and he's going on about he won't mind it one bit. just wants to see me in that small skirt the rascal! hahaa..

we are going out tonight. i told mom i wanted something low-key. we were just supposed to go for a thai dinner but apparently that place doesn't do buffet dinners.. so dad is taking us to either swisshotel or the fullerton or i don't know where else.. they've got the location under wraps hahaa.. oh, koko just called from south africa to wish. one of his passengers stole his mobile phone. and it's like the new model that he JUST bought. he was like helping them out so much on board and they just took it and claimed they didn't even though one of the flight stewardesses saw them take it. what a couple of dickheads. seriously, people like that shouldn't be served at all.

well, that's about it.. i gtg now cos dei needs e comp.. seeya!
:: krys Tuesday, March 29, 2005 [+] ::
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it's my 18th special today. and unfortunately, it's not special. one of those cliched things.. you look forward to it all through your secondary school life and when you get here, you're like,"fuck this isn't much is it."

but that's ok.. listening to jeff buckley.. things have changed quite a bit since my last entry.. james IS coming over. in april. yes that's like a few weeks time. i can't wait til he's here.. he's applying for his passport today during his lunch break. i miss him a lot.. not just as a boyfriend. he is the only person in my life right now that knows about everything in my life. it's so strange, i found old love letters to pris. and i can't remember what it is like to be in love with her. i remember being in love with her now, but not how it feels. i was telling him about how i was so into JC, how i loved playing rugby in 2E2.. how mr lee fell. hahaaa! those were the days aye..

my holidays have finally begun. exams were a killer, i seriously mugged the last three weeks of school. made up for all the times i slacked during the semester. but ok la, i am definitely more confident about my stats, MBS and accounting paper than i was for the mid-sem test(which i truly fucked up)

last night, i was on my bed scribbling and i felt my body swaying.. which was a bit weird i thought i was getting dizzy or something. and then, it happened again but slightly more intense. so i put down my pen and leaned my hand against the cupboard, and then i felt my entire bed shake which fucking freaked me out. so i hopped off my bed and went out to ask dei if she felt it. all i said was," did you feel that?" and she was like yea, everything was shaking wasn't it? dad told us there was an earthquake in sumatra. apparently 8 on e richter scale or something. it was pretty freaky..

i'm back doing cheerleading again, lol.. no la.. just helping out.. but it's nice, refreshing i guess. cos i haven't been doin it for so long.. now my arms are aching from the dancing. i told james about me getting back into cheerleading and he's going on about he won't mind it one bit. just wants to see me in that small skirt the rascal! hahaa..

we are going out tonight. i told mom i wanted something low-key. we were just supposed to go for a thai dinner but apparently that place doesn't do buffet dinners.. so dad is taking us to either swisshotel or the fullerton or i don't know where else.. they've got the location under wraps hahaa.. oh, koko just called from south africa to wish. one of his passengers stole his mobile phone. and it's like the new model that he JUST bought. he was like helping them out so much on board and they just took it and claimed they didn't even though one of the flight stewardesses saw them take it. what a couple of dickheads. seriously, people like that shouldn't be served at all.

well, that's about it.. i gtg now cos dei needs e comp.. seeya!
:: krys Tuesday, March 29, 2005 [+] ::
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