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:: Tuesday, October 12, 2004 ::

bought lip balm today.banana boat sunscreen lip balm. feel like gg to e beach. feel like having a picnic. james called today (grins foolishly) man, it was soooo good to hear his voice. i know this sounds cliched but he makes my knees weak. literally..i cant stop smiling. thats e kind of stuff you hear about in books aye? hahaa.. its crazy. he wants us to go for a holiday to japan. damn its hot. its fuckin 1 am and it's still so hot! might need to take my third shower of the day. oooh i want ice cream. i think there's a class bbq on thurs. but we've got a prayer meet at home.mom n dad are havin e neighborhood prayer group over so i dunno, wont be too suitable if i came home all sandy n smelling of seawater while they were reciting the rosary.

oh, i did attend novena on saturday.was really good. we had cheesecake after that. pretty much just hangin out with mom n dei. i hope parents do decide to go to perth. then me n dei n go see mitch and james.it'd be so fuckin awesome if i got to see my baby in november. then, i wouldn't have to wait all the way til next april.

i might wear my little red n white puma shorts for e class bbq.its quite cute. man, my joints are aching. my right shoulder and ankle. dunno why its hurtin.possibly cos i did quite a bit of walkin around today. think i got a bit of a tan despite wearin sunblock. iv got to clean e house tm. (yawn) ok im gonna shower. pronto.

video ezy is ultrafunky.

:: krys Tuesday, October 12, 2004 [+] ::
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say what you want but it wont change my mind.id feel the same about you.

*sigh* melancholy creeps up on me. so strange.maybe im suffering from depression.you the governments got an ad gg on now.abt how depression is curable.i was watchin it and thought, "omg..surely they are speaking to ME." hah..depression isnt curable you fools!so everyone who is feeling down go kill yourself.nownownow. (or you could consider stop visiting my blog..hmm much safer option i reckon.)

am listening to lots of placebo.i want to be a singer.iv changed my ambition.im gonna stow away in a navy ship headed for the US and make a dash for it as soon as we hit solid ground.then, il open my prata shop with funds from whothefuckknows.and if i still am not a successful greasy entrepreneur, il start learning to speak whatever langueage it is they speak in morocco.(il move to morocco) i was so enthralled by some images in this book.i had to buy it.theyve got these gorgeous images of morocco. like how leather i stanned and souks.its really wicked.

met pel(more affectionately known as ma) today. havent seen her in a damn long time so was a really gd surprise.seein ret every sunday is sort of like a staple.and is probably my only connection to kc days.feels like i was never at that convent.so surreal.you know what?i have developed a crush for two people.paul van dyk and this short F1 racer.so cute la all these short men.okaay, that sounds wrong. nevermind.

eee, im feeling itchy all over.the mozzies here are bloody pissin me off man.annoying. so wanna go clubbin soon.maybe me n pel will go to chinablack after hre exams are over.i really wanna go for zouk out 04 but i know they're really strict.and unless im related to paul van dyk or senior minister..i dun think can la...am hopin daddy lets me follow him n mom to perth this year end.thats IF i successfully convince the to go to perth la.they may go to melbourne to see uncle simon.so thats a big phooey..

did buy james bday present though. i know its over but nevermind. got him some polo tshirts. and the funky black n red chopsticks. knowin him, he'll prefer e chopsticks..hahaa..man, i miss him like crazy. sometimes i think i cant do it anymore.its really draining;being in a LDR when im still so young.i mean 17 is a relatively young age.a decade and seven years not too bad i would say.urgh..im actually annoyed.we havent spoken for quite a while. he had a gig for this youth concert in bunbury on saturday.and he had to jam the night before so we kept missin each other.like, id be in school..and he'd be waitin. then, when i get back, he'd be out.ah fuck its frustrating.i miss him SO bloody much its driving me crazy. i miss his hugs.i miss his messy hair.
i even miss socks whining for food in front of his bedroom door when we were resting in bed.

recommendations..

movies: yamasaki by luc besson
music: morninglust by james hall, do you like it by our lady peace
ink works: photography collections by whoever

i dont wanna be a puppet for you.

i dont wanna be a sucker for you.

i hate myself for begging.

i hate myself for staying.





:: krys Sunday, October 10, 2004 [+] ::
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