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:: Saturday, June 26, 2004 ::

our time is running out.

today,i slept in late.because yest,i had a reeeally long nap after i got home frm poly.only had one tutorial.anyway,i slept at 4am.making cards for sweeleng and kai.and writing nice notes of 'thank yous' to lyn and ruby & grace.wrote a letter to james too.unfortunately,one of the presents i got him did a lil disappearing act.so i was frustrated looking for it whilst talking to jac online yest.he said his gig was gd at margaret river but they lost to a heavy punk band.o well.im listening to sasha.

went for thai food this afternoon.i bought toner,writing pad for school,
pantiliners.also went for threading.now i am broke.ohh,and i talked to pel earlier..she wanted to go clubbing.sigh.just not in e mood to leave e house.il dance in my room later.be as one.feel as one.breathe as one.love as one.shoulders have been killing me for e past few weeks.they always tense up on their own. a backrub would be soo goood.uhhhmmm.krystal choo gives fantastic rubdowns.fantastic.saw her in sch on fri.im slowly starting to say hi to ppl.even if i dont know them well.mrs brown has asked me to help out in another event.im a little scared cos its gonna be pretty crowded.but we'll see how it goes.she said she'll train me.i have to call mrs thompson on monday.i also have to call jacs' friend abt sch books.and karen abt my payment for the TV show stint i did.

going for poetry slam on tuesday.yayee.wish i cld go zouk.nvm when ko comes back frm perth il ask him to sign me in.he's probably there with dei now.i reckon she'll crash at e sheraton with him.kim said that there's a really gd seafood buffet for flight crew.i miss deidre too.but somehow i get e feeling somethin happened there..cos mitch isnt in perth.he's back in mandurah.james said mitch was asking him to go over and im thinking,"arent they s'posed to go meet marc?" but yea..i dont know what plans they made.

my head explodes and my body aches.

think im gonna shower again.tomorrow is sunday.i have accomplished my first week of poly life.next week..il prob be pretty busy.then il have to srat studying for my tests..then deidre will be back.then it'll be term break and we have to go for kims' wedding.today mom n i went to chijmes for a bit.just had a walk ard and went into e chapel.they were prepping it for a wedding and damn was it gorgeous!roses..champagne glasses. candles.it looked really good.

i thought of hanging out with pris.last night.of us just sitting on my bed and talking and laughing and complaining abt life.maybe il post her smthg..a letter of some sort with pictures included.she's got so much gg for her there.oh yea,aunty margie called this aft.talked to her a bit. apparently gillian is in edith cowan.she's in performing arts doing dance.
she is really good at it.was trying to convince mom to migrate.or at least get PR.it wld be fantastic!!

kay,night.
krystle
:: krys Saturday, June 26, 2004 [+] ::
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this is a short entry.short but sad..deidre called earlier it was so nice to hear from her.told her abt my fucked up first day in sch.oh bumped into yip n sam whilst walking thru e cca promotion area.i met many ppl today actually..edith frm kcp,stella,sylvie,
some ex kc ppl..went to design sch for meesiam.not bad.but iv had better.i miss my sweetie so much.i cried again today..i dont know how im gg to get through poly like this.i just really want deidre to come home soon.things wld be so much easier cos we understand each other.and we're so much closer now so we'll be able to support each other as well..

i might go to bed soon.

oh went to p.way with ko n diane.had gelares..yummy.had mango sorbet.that was just gorgeous.wanted to buy something to make myself feel happier today.wanted to buy an adidas spekkies case.but no.then earrings.but no.then i finally chanced upon a stationary shop where i blew my money on highlighters,a mechanical pencil and lead.i love stationary.if james becomes the manager of officeworks,i should marry him to ensure myself an endless supply of stationary.

i want to shoot myself.how can this be happening to me?im craving tomyum soup suddenly.
k off to bed.
:: krys Tuesday, June 22, 2004 [+] ::
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oh god...i hate poly.i hate fucking poly.i was s'posed to meet jac but for some reason we just didnt see each other.it was a bad start.then i went for a 2hr lecture on microecons where e teacher kept repeating e factors of production.
shit its boring.im crying now.poly is so boring its making me cry.maybe i should just quit business.and apply for design.i wish i had taken arts management.i dont know why the fuck im studying the market;its of no interest to me at all.i had a 2nd lecture but i left after waiting for e lecturer for 20mins.saw cheryl jinga and dada.and marcus and shane too.at least i saw some ppl i knew..i didnt know anyone in lecture hall.had to sit with this guy isaac..
he knows sophia.small world.but he left halfway cos he studied econs before.

anyway,i called pris just now.we talked for a bit.god i miss her so much.i can just tell her everything.and i told her school sucked.she said that life is gonna be like that frm now on;lonely..independant.i have few things to look forward to this year.pris bday..deidre returning in a month(yayee!!),kims' wedding in m'sia,james bday..and then end of year break(double yayee) then a new year bash..my bday,then james visits mid next yr!!(triple yayee)maybe it's just my period coming so im super bitchy to everyone.i dont know..sigh,crying again i am..i hate this..i hate singapore... I HATE SINGAPORE.i dont want to live here anymore dammit....her parents are visiting so its a good thing i called before they arrived.i dont know why the hell my period is so late.like just come already..instead of me constantly living in fear of staining.as i was saying..me n pris talked..just wish we could meet.just wish i was rich so i could go on holidays a lot.marc went to melbourne a few weeks back.and now deidres' gg for a ski holiday(damn her) and mom n dad are gg next yr!!im e only one who hasnt been to melbourne in years.i was talking to pris on e phone & james came online.so he was talking to mom for a bit..mom kept yelling,"krys he's onliiiine.." and pris was like,"well your mom's talking to your boyfriend."its weird.i cant wait to leave singapore.now i know why deidre keeps gg back.because its just fantastic.i probably sound dillusioned..or possibly obsessed.but i dont care.i mean it.

must also consider what cca to take.maybe photography..yea.i was looking through e ECU courses.i might take arts management there.its three yrs.well,i think iv done enough.i just want to sleep and dream of better times.shit im s'posed to call pris later too.and i just told jac il call her...hmmmm:time management.i miss deidre..wish she was here so we could talk.she's gg to buy for me that nice playboy wallet.*grin* maybe il shave my legs and wear a mini skirt tomorrow.or maybe il wear my woven straw hat and pretend to be a cowgirl.
bet that will DEFINITELY expand my social circle.hahaaa!!or maybe il wear some new clothes so i feel happier.need to get colored ink for the printer.also need to get a mobile.its just that..im so lazy..to actually get gg to decide what plan and blahblahblah.i just like being unreachable.maybe il go for gelares on my own tm.pig out and feel sad abt it afterwards.oh but thats right!retts thing is tm..the hotel thingey..wonder if i need to bring anything.i always feel bad gg for something empty handed.

dark,brooding and somewhat rough around the edges.

this film has violence and sexual content which some passengers may find objectionable.

parting is such sweet sorrow.

extremely well-defined characters.

Sylvia Plath killed herself at thirty.

absolutely fabulous.

this week,get hooked on music by the gypsy kings.their smooth voices and lively tunes are just the thing to rev up the beginnings of this summer.

on a more mellow note,pick up diana kraals' latest album.for her style of jazz we've all grown to know and love.this one is a little more sensual.

if you're not in the mood to get a whole new album & prefer being immoral and cheapskate like me,download one of george michaels' latest songs;amazing.read the title,need i say more love?

ta,
krys





:: krys Monday, June 21, 2004 [+] ::
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sunday morning rain is falling.

cept..its not raining neither is it morn.its a bloody hot sunday evening.called james for a bit but the fucking connection was horrible.our voices were delayed.so like,a few seconds after he spoke there wld be this weird silence.so we just gave up and talked a while on msn.he's gone for tea so il catch him later tonight.yayee!!urrgh i miss him so much.yest we were talking n i told him how i enjoy eating n sleeping and he said,"great then you can marry my cat."haha..lameass.wish i was in bunbury with him.so jealous of deidre right now.oh,and mark has e same bday as me!29 march as well.ko n diane are in m'cca now.he just got back frm san francisco n he's gone holidaying.the little rat.i start sem 1 tm.shit im scared.i dont want to be friends with all the weird ahlians..who say girls as 'gers' and who believe the best invention in the world today are those neoprint machine cubicles.someone shoot me.no. wait..someone shoot them.haha!

meeting jac tm at 930am.she will send me to my lecture hall;like a parcel.she knows how easily i get lost.lecture on microecons for 2 hrs.ouch.went for mass today.then mom me n nan met dad for lunch.we had thai.it was really good.as in..reeeally good.i bought a book too.elements of marketing.this will be my current reading material..im sorta reading midnight in the garden of good and evil.lots of homosexuals and murder scandals.
yum..i need to bathe again.i dont know how many times i bathe..very often.just cant take e heat.eewww.i really want risotto.oh!!yest i got to talk to priiis!oh that was just great!we spoke for ages..til mom n dad got pretty pissed.shit if moms mean she may not let me go online to chat with james later.phooey.anyway,me n pris spoke for at least two hrs.its just super easy to talk with her..conversation just flows and there isnt the odd silence..she's right.if we could meet,we'd just stay up e whole night talking.til the sun comes up..over roti prata and satay..hahaa..damn i miss her. sometimes she says things and its exactly what im thinking.funny.i tell her what im thinking and she's like,"hey!exactly!!" cool.weird but cool.rets' hotel thingey is on tues.shit if only i didnt have sch.so wed e girls have got training which hopefully i can attend.i just wanna see em train.wish i cld help..but there's only so much an ex-team mate can do.sighness.

maroon 5 rocks.im listening to em right now.just now it was planet funk.maybe il go have a nap.get some munchies,on e aircon and read my elements of marketing book in my room.nice one.i might get a part time job at body contours.the manager is really nice plus she's dads' friend.yayee.then il know all e massages and treatments..oh this morning i woke at 630am for some reason.then i slept a bit and woke up n saw e sunrise..
or maybe it wasnt.maybe i was very tired and started hallucinating.but it was a bright light i think...hmm.

nans' gone to a.pams' place.hopefully she remembers to ask for estee lauder blusher.i
love the blusher.and cliniques' naturally glossy mascara.and body shops' lip gloss. =D
im gg to koh samui next yr.i dont care,im gg.il swim there if i have to dammit.

hungry..off to munch.tata
krys -85-
:: krys Sunday, June 20, 2004 [+] ::
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