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:: Wednesday, December 31, 2003 ::

new years eve is today.

i haven't had a proper meal for a few days.i had a few biscuits yest..oh and some soup noddles..but that's ok.i think i lost weight again.yayee.

i dreamnt about her last night.its really cool.im pretty glad we're like this now..i can still love her as a friend.=D just finished another book.oceans' 11.that's bad,i keep skipping from one book to another.i was a quarter way through 'the most wanted' and then,jane eyre...then i read two sidney sheldon novels and then a few chapters into lotr..haiz,must finish la..getting mixed up already.

to really love a woman,to understand her
you gotta know her deep inside.
hear every thought,see every dream
and give her wings when she wants to fly.
then when you find yourself lying helpless in her arms,
you know you really love a woman.

you love the woman,tell her that she's really wanted.
you love the woman,tell her that she's the one.
she needs somebody to tell her that it's gonna last forever
so tell have you really,really really ever loved a woman.

to really love a woman,
let her hold ya till you know how she needs to be touched.
you gotta breathe her,really taste her,
til you can feel her in your blood.
when you can see your unborn children in her eyes,
you know you really love a woman.

you love a woman,tell her that she's really wanted.
you love a woman,tell her that she's the one.
she needs somebody to tell her that you'll always be together
so tell me have you really,really ever loved a woman.

you've got to give her some faith,hold her tight.
a little tenderness,you gotta treat her right.
she will be there for you,taking good care of you,
you really gotta love your woman.

and when you find youself lying helpless in her arms,
you know you really love a woman.

you love a woman,tell her that she's really wanted.
you love a woman,tell her that she's the one.
cos she needs somebody to tell her that it's gonna last forever
so tell me have u really,really really ever loved a woman.

just tell me have you really,really really ever loved a woman.
just tell me have you really,really really ever loved a woman.
just tell me have you really,really really ever loved a woman.

well,i'm lost in thoughts.and they're so confusing and colorful right now,that even i can't jot them down.im sipping cranberry juice.and im thinking about...
-what lasalle is gonna be like next year.
-how i'm gonna bring in the new year
-when my fucking cold will go away
-if he ever thinks about me
-that's it..i think.

this is probably the last entry i'll make this year.i'll see you again,but somehow i feel obliged to bid you farewell,formalities and all.so cheers to the past year,the tears,the smiles,and most of all,the end of my journey through sec school life.BUT!the beginning of tertiary.happy new year.

dammit,enough already!*cough.cough*so what's your new year resolution eh?

faith,hope and love,
krystle eva -85-






:: krys Wednesday, December 31, 2003 [+] ::
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cockernarden.im sick again.which is damn wasted cos new years' eve is tomorrow..what a waste.i think i may go to yuns' place for her party.see how la..i wonder why men are so stupid sometimes..so very very stupid.

x'mas was different this year.we did some really lame things in m'sia..had a lucky dip and i put in fake eyelashes..and jj got em.hahaa..
maxine got a coconut i think..that was fun.and all the girls wore black dresses but in different designs.it wasn't even planned.we just all decided on our own.deidre had this backless dress on and a turquoise shawl..denise wore this tube dress with a kan-kan skirt,this fishnet top and all her rocker-chick accessories,ally wore this cross-back thing and she looked pretty vampy with those killer heels..tania went all retro with her black n white polka-dot dress and this white flower in her hair..and i wore a cheongsam with chopsticks in my hair.

ok nuf bout that.family politics got the better of me too..little scene of me crying at the wanton mee shop.haiz,sometimes people can be so judgemental.they can have all these ridiculous expectations that probably they don't even live up to.so it's not fair at all that they imply the standards.

fools.

this is pretty bad.i don't even know him..i haven't even spoken to him before..and yet i constantly find my mind drifting to him.its stupid.i guess i find it surprising that he added me in msn.i mean,he's never spoken to me before either.but mitch tells me he's interested and im just like... aiyah...is it that bad if the age gap is four years?(i suddenly thought of sim lim guy)okay..im gonna not think about it;about him.cos if anything were to happen,it's in Gods' hands.plus,im going to college mid next year so who knows what could happen!

mom's upset.i feel bad.i don't know what to do to make her feel better.
actually,i know nothing i do will make her feel better.maybe it's my inability to aid the situation that's killing me..i think i'm in love with my box of belgian chocolates.

ooooh!can i tell you what i got for christmas?!marc n diane gave me a pair of red panties.hahaa..it was a trick.they gave that to me,all wrapped up..and then they gave me my REAL prezzie which was...*drumroll* HUGO DEEP RED!!!o my gawd.iv been wanting that for so bloody long!and they got me the 100ml bottle so i was just like, "yayee!yayee!yayee!" and mitch gave me these lime green skincare mini hampers..lime green i tell uuu!shower gel and body lotion and this little sponge and a shower glove.all very lovely =D. sarah gave me this really nice picture frame,monteiro gave me chocs(the one im in love with),lipgloss and lipstick.

she called but i wasn't in s'pore yet.so wasted,she called thrice.it'd be nice to hear from her..i miss our old days of friendship when i was in sec school.jac,her n i..we used to eat in the canteen and the two would be telling me all these horribly lame jokes,haiz..you'll never know what you've got til it's gone.

i have so many new pairs of earrings..these silver disc ones..and a pair of copper-colored discs too..and peacock feathers as well.they're all very chun.im happy.sick but happy..

got me affected,spun me 1-80 degrees,so electric.....

tata,
krystle -85-

:: krys Tuesday, December 30, 2003 [+] ::
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