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:: Saturday, December 20, 2003 ::

dammit...

i'm feeling like shit today.it was rainy the WHOLE day.honestly,i like the rain;it induces one to sleep,and gives for a cosy atmosphere..but that's indoors..when you're out,walking in puddles and getting splashed with dirty road water by some hokkien-swearing driver who is blasting stupid A1 hits on his stereo system.....well,that's just radical.

my eyes have been hurting me badly for the past few days.i don't know why..maybe i'm becoming myopic.i've actually read 3 chapters of lotr.its a good book.i get lost in the story line so i can forget earthly troubles,even if just for a while...

i spent the entire day shopping again..i was reeally tired but ko wanted these hush puppies shoes..so mum got it at the taka outlet.and she bought me eyeliner too.yayee.oh and i bought gops united colors of bennetton parfum.i know she likes that so it's a good one.

i've lost two cds..i'm soo dead,i don't know where the fuck my kylie cd went to..aaaargh.
and jac gave that to me!double aaargh.i miss her.i miss talking to all my friends..i think they all never actually liked me.they all pretended maybe.that's why no one even cares that i may be going away next year.of course not aussie..i don't wanna go there just yet.what,with so many things unsettled.plus,i'm not prepared for chilli-less days..i might go to m'sia actually.but we'll see how that turns out.i might stay with jj and tania then.cept both of them will be working in the city.tania might take a job at klcc and j's a chef at a local restaurant.yep.

and these mosquitos!o bloody hell.just leave me alone already.i've got about 8 on each calf.it's horrid really.i don't understand why they're doing this to me,i've never seriously offended them in any way..

i still feel bad for not sending out xmas cards..actually no,i just want to send a card to one person..but she probably doesn't give two fucks(make it just one fuck for that matter) if i'm dead.i have all these stupid dreams at night.and when i tell marc,he just says,"enough.." as though i'm controlling my dreams...am i?shoot.

well,that's all.i'm just being immoral now..d/load songs again.hahahaa..i'll update you tomorrow..prob after mass cos we're going town again i think..and on monday morn,we leave for m'sia.mental note:must pack bag.

blah,
krystle

:: krys Saturday, December 20, 2003 [+] ::
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oh gosh..

okay firstly,mitch is here.he's funny but it's a tad bit hard to understand what he's talking about..but he gave me really nice earrings!!yayee..my favourite =D yea,i love jay-z's song.change clothes,and go.

i'm actually really surprised..ppl have been sending me x'mas cards.and i don't send out cards so i feel bad.but i'm thinking what the fuck??they don't even make an effort to talk to me in real life so why bother with the cards?but nvm.life is odd.

i wish pris would call.i dreamt of her again.i dreamt she called.and we talked on the phone..and it was so nice to hear her voice,it made me feel all warm inside.i can't explain it.but i know it's beautiful.when i woke up,i felt drained.because it wasn't real;she wasn't real..it's weird when i think about it.cos all that was a year(or more) ago..i was looking through some letters she gave me.and i read my diary..about how she asked me to patch and all.and when she left for aussie,pretty much all my journal entries were about her.and later on about how i kissed jac.i felt so fucking,fucking guilty.i can't remember how many nights i spent crying because i hurt so many ppl through my actions.i still can't believe i hurt pris like that.and you'll never think it's the ones that you love the most that you hurt the most.and now mitch is here..and deidre keeps calling him baby.and i'm think of old days when it was krys & pris.it makes me smile and it makes me cry.

o no,here i am..not thinking before i type.

but why should you care?because you're probably an anonymous homophobic for all i care.
for all i care!for all i care!!that sounds like the title i'll give to my first music album if i ever cut one. =D

o balls.i can't care anymore.i also just realised that i have to wear clothes not school uni next year...hahaa..how fun.i wonder if ppl will still call me pad-girl.for always being prepared with a ready supply.an honour that is not likely to be bestowed upon me.i also started on lotr.have i told u?i'm on page 6 of the prologue..(oooh,quite an advancement!)

i need to dance badly....dup.dup.dup.dup.dup...okay,fine,i really have nothing to say.my life just feels empty in general.that's bad.maybe i'll go to the adoration room before i go for dinner with my tuition kaki.see how la..mom is playing xmas songs..and our tree lights are casting funny patterns on e wall.but it looks pretty.plus,the amount of presents at its base are increasing at a relatively good rate.*beams*

iv got to fly,
krystle eva -85-



:: krys Friday, December 19, 2003 [+] ::
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mitchell is coming in a while..so cute,nan is all dressed up,wearing red lipstick at home..i have to shower.change into something presentable.. listening to barry white now.dammit man,i can just dissolve into this kind of music.anyway,we've finished cleaning the entire house..i polished so many pieces of furniture.im hungry.

i really wanna be with you.......

tonight is andrea joys' christening party.i don't know what to wear..im gettting my period soon so i have to be a bit wary.i guess i'll end up wearing jeans.bah.or maybe if mom permits my funkay new army green pants!!!oh,and i might be giving tuition to little pri.1 kids(thanks to michelle);D i wanna go zouk..*sobs* i feel so high,dancing all night,you blow my mind,cos you're so fine.that's a modjo song..aaah,he's real good too.i saw bryan a few days ago at orchard..he looks the same.

i've started wrapping presents already.four so far..they look pretty under the fake tree.this year my color scheme seems to be silver,purple n blue.and stars..all e gifts have stars stuck on them..its all very stylo-milo..

i hope i get to buy that funky underwear set.the neon punk one..i reeeally like it....haiya..o and i dont know why but all my friends seem to be acting weird..like michelle n jac..and ret a bit..so i was really surprised yesterday when sarah called me in the morning.it was a nice surprise and we talked for an hour.about everything.i'll miss her when she leaves for hawaii...

i'm really glad i can talk to him though..yest when we were online,i was feeling kinda shitty and he kept making me laugh with all these silly jokes..so things weren't so bad.im still thinking of what to give him for x'mas.oh noo,does it also mean i have to give ganesh something too?i don't know what to get him either...oh and tomorrow,im probably going out with leann.linnette and sheena..oh!and alps too..hahaa..im gonna have to buy something for that smelly man as well....*snigger*

okay,i gotta fly.actually,i wanna watch days of our lives but nvm..must shower first.tataa..

ps:beware the mosquitos.they eat me alive...

peace,im out
krystle eva -85-



:: krys Friday, December 19, 2003 [+] ::
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heya..

i came back yesterday morning.malaysia was brilliant!i had such a fun time.i think i'm addicted to shopping.this is very bad.i just went wild.i love it man!!and i'm almost done with my x'mas shopping too.i bought mom,deidre n ko gifts..and sarah,yuns,mich,retret,jac,chinky and leann too.but i told my family what their gifts were cos i couldn't tahan..hahaa..and i bought a shiny disco ball!aahhh...

i went clubbing in KL..hrmm,i didn't really like the music cos it was pretty much r&b but okay la..the company was good.tania,denise,jj,tommy,jayson n i so we had quite a lot of fun..and j wore this sleeveless shirt and i think a gay bartender was trying to dance with him..*laughs*

ghost hunting was damn exciting as well.there's even a horse stable we checked out at about two am..scary shit balls.then,we went home n jj,brandon n i shared ghost stories till i got so freaked i had to sleep with them on either side of me..wimpo.

i'm going to buy my x'mas clothes today.mom's going with me n deidre..i can't wait.it seems like this year,my colour theme for clothes is black.i mean,my cheongsam is black,i've got another black dress,i just bought two tops in black..haiya,now everyone will think i action goth or something...

i had a good chat with krystal choo yesterday at rets' b'day bbq.then again,it's always a good convo with krystal..we were talking about premarital sex..and exchanged views and all.very interesting.but of course,i shan't go into detail just in case some curious underaged kid stumbles upon this page....

my word of the day is sugar.ok fine,it's either 'sugar' or 'odd.'yea..i like both words.dammit now i gotta fly.mom's home from e market and i gotta go shower cos we're leaving soon..and mitch is coming down in a few days...deidre is full of glee.o yea..another item added to my wish list;the blue and orange adidas shorts i've been eye-ing for AGES.and maybe a call from pris before i go back to malaysia for x'mas.=)

peace,im out
krystle eva -85-
:: krys Tuesday, December 16, 2003 [+] ::
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