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:: Thursday, December 04, 2003 ::

im still a little sick.
but today i dont give a fuck about anything cos its best being indifferent sometimes.
well,im gg away to msia soon.in about four hours.and no one gives a bloody damn.
il be back maybe..never.im taking a flight to thailand after KL.and i was thinking of checking out nepal after that.apparently,they've got some famous mountains there.

danii minogue has a great voice..sweeet.or maybe its just her music im addicted to.like heroin.gasping,yearning,aching for more.trance always sets off an orgasmic reaction in me and i realise how easy it is to dissolve into the music.

im so hungry.i havent eaten properly for about a week.
yest i ate a piece of bread n cheese,a cheese prata n 6 nuggets.
day before i had some soup n bread.oh n peach tea.the day befor that i had about three spoonfuls of rice.today i have had nothing.somehow i never believed hunger could be ignored by me for so long.i always thought;hell there's noo way i could resist e shelf of gum-drops in a variety of colors..but apparently i can.i wonder what anorexia is all about...
who do you love now.thats danii's song.

yesterday,i chanced upon a picture of her.she's probably straight since i now rely on my superficial assumations of everything around me.in a gown all.her name wasn't there but i just knew.i knew it was her cos i felt like throwing up.im not sure.could be because that pretty little mouth of hers knows places & things about me that i only discovered with her.i think im happy.i wanted to see her n my prayer came true.i just hope she's happy.or maybe i dont care!hahaa.its funny.i was so afraid of jinxing it all but now i.dont.care.

life's too short to be miserable about little issues like these.im so hungry the pain in my stomach is reaching my chest and i can feel it creeping inside me nibbling on my sportsbra. that could be my imagination couldnt it.i finally sent my grad pics to e photoshop.il collect em in two hrs..i hope they all turn out okay..its e last pics il prob have with my skoolmates.
not that i actualli care though.i suppose in a few years il be able to tell some naive little brat that sec skool will hold the best memories n that i miss mine oh soo much.*sobs* but i'll leave that to later.i never think of tomorrow,it always comes too soon.

i wonder if butterflies fall in love.

okay thats it.i have to make a reality check.all my clothes are on nannys' bedroom floor.lingerie all in disarray n accessories not organised.i wouldnt be caught dead overseas without earrings now would i??haha.suure. you fool.

anyway,mom cooked so im..tempted...heehee.il update u abt e trip when i get back.if i return that is.*chuckles* im so glad ashraf n i talk.he's such a great friend..its hard to find ppl you cantalk to when everything gets so jaded.well the time is high n iv got to fly.and i just finished a sidney sheldon novel.HE'S EXCELLENT!!

push me,and then just touch me,till i can get my,satisfaction.-benny benassi.

bon voyage,
krystle eva -85-




:: krys Thursday, December 04, 2003 [+] ::
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*whines*

im sick.so im not expected to be happy or polite.my neck and shoulders ache.and i want a massage.badly.today is leanns' b'day party but i cant go cos mommy said il spread the flu.geez.i feel like im being shut out from everything.mankind in general.

i recently finished a novel;Raphael.it was a good one.set in the 1500s.it was a male-dominated era.and the girls were always succumbing to stupid demands of the males!aargh.i was getting irritated for them.and i bought a book too!yayee.charlotte brontes' Jane Eyre.its pretty okay so far.i feel like im reading a literature text.

ohohh!i got my first xmas gift yest.from kim la.she always gives the funkiest stuff.i know its only the start of december but deidre already opened hers.kim gave her a maybeline make-up set and this burgundy lacy skirt.im soo tempted to open mine..........*cheeky grin*

i think im hungry.hah.for once thats good.it means im getting my appetite back/im getting better!im going to m'sia in a few days.il prob stay with gops.she bought me peacock feather earrings!!hahaa...o man,that reminds me.iv gotta start buying xmas gifts too.*sigh* exciting.

k la..very sian to type already.anyway,im gonna go to the photo shop & get my pictures developed.some of deidres' aussie trip pics are in there too.

question of the day:if you were gonna get a tattoo,what would it be and where?

peace,i ache
krystle eva -85-
:: krys Tuesday, December 02, 2003 [+] ::
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