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:: Sunday, September 07, 2003 ::

what the shit??

im already so freakin busy nowadays and i actually made the effort to call pris and what happens?WHAT HAPPENS?her sister bloody hell hangs up on me.#@%**!#*@#%!!!!!!geez,i know she hates me but thats just bloody unmannered siah!she has no right to screen pris' calls k..especially since its a LONG DISTANCE CALL.*PEEEEEEEEEEP* ferget it,im too pissed off w/ her to actually type abt it.

went for mass today w/ crystal,minru,stellz,francis n stuart..ya la..today we planned all e actiities for next week.SO EXCITING!!hehee..damn i cant stop thinkin about pris now..shit man..this sucks big,big time..on the contrary,my studies..oh wait!that lots just as bad.i really really hope pris isn't missing home too much.i hope she's happy.everytime i talk to jac,she tells me that pris is feeling lonely or she's busy w/ class and all(that one the norm la..in s'pore also so gung ho bout skool!!) but yea..maybe im a tad bit dillusional and want to believe she still needs me as much as i need her.not in THAT way or anythin..just as a confidante;SOMEONE I CAN TRULY BE MYSELF WITH..someone i still love..*sheepish grin*

o noo..im cryin now.uncontrollably.like a stupid thing in love.in love...owwww..why is it hurting this much..how can the only person right in my entire life be wrong..How God please tell me why i love her so...its been like what,1yr and 5 mths since we admitted our feelings?and i still ..fuck la.. there's no use pouring out my fucking heart to u anyway.you're just a blinking computer.what?has krystle resorted to having lengthy conversations with electronic devices when her heart is about to explode with the most unimaginable pain.u know,apparently we "see red" when pissed..im seeing purple now.what does that mean.actually no..its sort of white.like a little haze sneaked up on me,enveloping my entire being..and im lost..lost..floating again..back into oblivion..along with other meaningless forgotten stars..

if i never knew you
if i never knew you...
id have lived my whole life through...
empty as the sky
never knowing why
lost forever
if i never knew you

and so the fairytale ends;two lovers reunited
(but only in the theatre of dreams my dear,only in the theatre of dreams...)

:: krys Sunday, September 07, 2003 [+] ::
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