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:: Saturday, August 23, 2003 ::

err..feelin a little crammed.everyone seems to be in my home.papa,mama,mei,gops,tania,dad,mom n i...o yes nanny too.like the whole world ar?hahaa..k shall i get straight t the point?my confirmation is today!!aaah,so scared.so,so scared.im just lookin at mama cookin in the kitchen and it seems so wrong.im so used to seeing her bustle around that hot little kitchen in klang.strange man..o balls i still have my bloody period.hah.no pun intended.i had nightmares that i would stain and all know.that's not the worst bit.i have to blinkin go up there and give testimony.it'll probably be the longest few metres in my life.but of course,a lot of sadness comes along with the fear and excitement i feel this afternoon..i realise and accept the fact that we all have to grow up at some point or another in our lives but i just didn't expect it to happen so fast!i won't be attending cat.class anymore n i won't have cat. retreats anymore.(cheh!talkin damn big!i only attended one..)

winson knows.winson knows.well,i am upset.no point denying the truth..he loves another girl and that girl loves him.i am interested in him but i don't think it's worth breakin up two people who want to be together.i mean,love is a very special thing and if they found it i really should respect them and not intervene.cos i know the feeling..*sigh* pris.i know many people liked her when we were together but the thing is we loved each other so ya,i can't possibly steal someones' boyfriend now.it's just morally wrong..i miss pris a lot too.but what can i do?o noo!speakin in rhymes again..*moans* she hasn't contacted me for so long.one would definitely believe that she didn't care.she doesn't care.i think im holding on to something that is long gone.she's straight and probably likes a guy and proably loves life over there.i just pray she is happy.when she's happy then i'll be happy.

im really tired about everything.all i look forward to in life is God and gettin out of kc.i just wanna start studyin,no,learning,about what i love.can't wait!can't wait!i think im going to perth to study.curtin i think..so exciting!hope we have enough cash by then..im going to work part-time so im sure i will make ends meet. apparently,perth is a very condusive environment for studying cos it aint too fast-paced.but then the clubs in the city are damn happenin too.some place called the ruby room.i just overheard the conversation betwen deidre and tania.they were rambling on about all the best clubbin havens in north bridge..suppose it's like ms over here..that reminds me!been a while since i went clubbin man..last time was zouk.*sigh* ah the music..

have to make a few calls later.plan here and there about some song we're gonna sing for mass..the time has come for me to bid you a good day.i shall end off with yet another masterpiece from the english language... have a great day,God bless..

Out,out,brief candle;
Life's but a walking shadow; a poor player
That struts and frets his hour upon the stage,
And then is heard no more. It is a tale
Told by an idiot, full of sound and fury,
Signifying nothing.

-Macbeth by William Shakespeare

peace im out,
krystle eva -85-

:: krys Saturday, August 23, 2003 [+] ::
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greetings.

geez so much has happened balls.i think i really really am startin to like winson.partly due to needin a rebound for pris,partly cos i just think he's cute n real sweet lor.=) anyway,i called him the other day and asked him out for lunch but yea,he was havin it already and i felt a lil sad.but!but!then he called back and apologised!!TWICE..heehee so ya it was quite a damn good one.i think im callin him later..not sure la.see how maybe just ask some silly question or somethin..you know what's different about him?i can concentrate on other things. not like with pris;she just consumes every bit of me..then again,maybe it's because i don't know winson n if ,IF i repeat,we were together chio bu said i probably would be just as smitten with him as i am/was with pris..haiz yepyep.

must clean room in a bit.haiz i need more shelf space!!urggh,i have sooo many school books and tys's that that miserable space i claim as my own is truly insufficient.*sob* mama m'sia is comin down tomorrow.k i am a lil freaked..didn't see all of them since x'mas last year den ya la,they are quite missed.however,it also means im gonna get very,very lil studyin done cos e house willl be super noisy!all e more i should call him out to study!!*chuckles* yay-ee!listenin to queen of the damned ost now..nice one.

wahlau..i really hope i get my period soon...if not ar,my flow will be farkin heavy on confirmation day.why is that not favourable?need i say?my whole blinkin outfit is white.sekali come out one red patch!hello?national day over already..

ko n deidre are back in town too.they got me real funky underwear.champion siah.they noe me well.*nod head intelligently* lets see..what else..k la,nothin.

question of the day:what's the best junk-food haven?(i think mine is mos burger.does that count?most of their food doesn't seem very cooked anyway..hrmm)

kk gtg study aredy!
peace im out,
krystle eva -85-
:: krys Tuesday, August 19, 2003 [+] ::
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