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:: Saturday, August 09, 2003 ::

hey..

here's wishin all out there a happy national day.=)
should be studyin but no,here i am again not doin
that.and i also should get started on my catecism
homework but ya im not doin that either just yet.
hmm,paul reminded our group so many times yest
so got no excuse to say forgot.haiz wasted!ohoh!
tomorrow some of e cat class ppl going to wear red
n white.so fun!!i had a plan to call dominic and ask
him if he was going for class..and then remind him
to wear red n white but i realised he is like not
singaporean..he's indonesian so why wld he want
to wear the colors of another country??so that plan
didn't work..in fact it didn't even happen!!

i went for novena today..ben,marcus n i la..jen didn't
come in the end cos it's so far for her.den after that
we were supposed to go makan together but ben
had to go with his family in the end and marcus was
serving for 6pm mass..so i had some personal time.
quite fun la..its good to be on your own sometimes.
i was hoping id 'bump' into dominic but nope.no sign
of him.not even a sliver of his shirt color or funky hair
or anythin.can't wait to see him tomorrow!actually i
can la..it's just a common phrase everyone uses..get
what i mean?anyways...

i really miss ko n deidre..been dreaming of them so
often.almost like every night.it sucks man.being alone
at home with no fellow sibs to argue with..*sigh*k la..
i think i gtg alredy..too much time on the com..farewell.

question of the day:choose-->immortality or uncertain
future after death.

im out,
krys -85-
:: krys Saturday, August 09, 2003 [+] ::
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wahlau..what the hell man.i swear im just so sickened by life and all its coy ways of hurting people i love.urrgh.the backstabbin.the bullshit.the carrying of balls.the pressure.the caffeine addictions.the lesbian relationships.the fucked up boyfriends.the stupid people that are hooked on smoking and drugs and believe they can quit anytime when they can't.the diets to become lithe figures.(did you know the average model size is now 0 to 2?my gosh it's like the kind of clothes my barbie dolls wear.i don't even think half my pinky finger can fit into that size of clothing.)

ironic really.you ever get that feeling of being in a real crowded room but feel more alienated than ever?oh my!how cliche!whatever with a capital w.im just thinkin about everything again.im dressed in a orange batik frock,the polluted wind blowing through my frizzy hair.hmm,nice image ar?all that's missing is a scenic poster of key largo in the backdrop and some tacky vinyl flooring to complete the professional model shoot.

i just realised how very shallow and,well,stupid this bloody blogger thing is.its like a real 'subtle' way of tellin ppl to get off.i guess it used to be really fun but..haiz dunno.maybe i knew it all along but was too caught up in the crowd i didn't realise i was being whisked away in the facade of this manufactured attitude as well.virtual friends.virtual love.virtual gods.

If i had a choice in life
of who i would want to be
would i take on this role im given
with the challenges being me
or would i still believe that someone else
was more of a gem than i
and that the goal i wanted
was always just too high

perhaps i would find comfort
in material wealth galore
but which millionaire is happy?
they're always wanting more
so maybe claiming the title
of the girl with the best mark
(but then why do i get the feeling
i'd still be in the dark?)

alas it must be beauty then
that shall keep me content
but what glamour is there in botox
its attractiveness not meant
by God or his wondrous ways
and rules we live each day through
wasn't created by Him
instead,by me and you

and so this plastic carapass
in which we all do live
is no meaning to OUR lives
because we have nothing to give.
the source of all this money
the glory and the fame
is the elixir of energy
that drives us through this game.

so it's time to get some answers
to these questions in my head
but i fear the unknown waters
of which i now must tread
through to feed this rude desire
to learn the meaning of my life
and the necessity to why
it's just so filled with bloody strife.

when im going to take this journey,
i don't even know
the irony in this stanza is
do i even want to go?
because it means getting out of
this draining cycle which im in
admitting to my current lifestyle
that's smothered in sin

praying to Him for aid
in this mere game of foul play
i hope my faith will keep me believing
i shall be rescued one day.

won't we all?


ahh..yes i just made that up.completed at 10pm to be exact.=) well i think i said it all back there.well,most of it at least.
gotta go now..time to sleep cos im meetin stella early to get ready.SO FUN!

that's it,il bid you a good evening now.

good evening.

im out
krys -85-
:: krys Thursday, August 07, 2003 [+] ::
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What is this life if,full of care,
We have no time to stand and stare?

No time to stand beneath the boughs
And stare as long as sheep or cows.

No time to see,in broad daylight,
Streams full of stars,like skies at night.

No time to turn at Beauty's glance,
And watch her feet,how they can dance.

No time to wait till her mouth can
Enrich that smile her eyes began.

A poor life this is if,full of care,
We have no time to stand and stare.


k,that was Leisure by W.H.Davies..well im here again.not in skool as u must have guessed already.. damn lazy to go la.anyway,i wanted to study for my geog test tomorrow..wahlau yest i slept at 5pm all the way to 2.30am this morn balls..yes that also means i have to cover about 6 chpts today since i din study AT ALL yesterday.drats.my cut is healing at a reasonably quick past..dreamt abt marc last night.i seriously miss him n deidre so much..wherefore did thy siblings leave meeee...

oh im awfully hungry.lunch is on its way..dad passed me e eurasian assos booklet.we've got a new community house..yay,*laughs* like im damn active or wad..not!haha i think jac is poppin by kc today.. but wasted i aint goin skool.o well its been so long since we met up.miss that cow siah..muffin.
teehee..sorry sorry inside joke..oh yep im thinking about askin dominic to watch e fireworks with me on national day..*sigh* lets see if i have e bloody balls to siah..il probably faint before i even reach the phone just to call him..anyway,i think i should be frens w/ him first.then it wun be so superficial /plutonic..
k la.dats e plan..

tomorrow,im goin for an excursion.actually i was thinkin of not handin up the form so i can stay in e school library and study.see how that goes la.il decide tonight.then on friday,its national day celebrations and my class; *****4E1***** was chosen to help e ol folkies that are visitin!!yay!!and we get to be their escorts and all.we gotta settle the catering too.so excitin ar..like we get to polish up on our public relations skills..after that my church group is gon to pauls' place for cheese pizza!yaaay..so yummy..heehee..neway,im off for lunch!bye..

peace im out
krys -85-



:: krys Wednesday, August 06, 2003 [+] ::
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hello..

its me again.hah who else could it be riiite?well before i begin let me just state michelle leong is completely upset cos someone stole/accidentaly took her pencil case which she uses with utmost adoration.so,if you are aware of the location of this prized purple item or the whereabouts of the person(s) who may have taken it,feel free to contact me or mich.

just spoke to jac fer an hour so cant too long on e com..still got at least three chpts to cover today..yea,its weird.she's changed.i feel it siah..guess the differences between us are really apparent cos she has a whole new environment to experience n adapt to..and she spoke to pris,who didnt mention me at all..*laughs* you know what?i shouldn't even bother abt pris..i dont think it'll be very easy anyway cos i still love her like THAT.den ya la..fuckin hard balls..i am sure this dominic person isn't just gonna be a short lil infatuation.i know its startin out pretty shallow n superficial but i really wanna get to know him n just.*sigh* yepyep...he was so damn cute last week.hah yest i mean.i swear its a good thing he was not next to me or i really would have just kissed him.*teehee* nice blue shirt he had on..actually i was more concerned abt what was under it eh?*snigger*no lahh..im not like that.im guai..

then again,i might be totally giving up on my love life till a long time more.like just focus on my Os n study real hard.and of cos the intensive partyin at ZOUK thereafter..yea..il see where that takes me .farewell now..i shall go off n study now..

question of the day:aaah..no question tonite folks..just a pretty neat stanza i wanted to share...

Goodbyes are not forever,
Goodbyes are not the end.
They only say I'll miss you,
Until we meet again.

umm,thats it la.have a great week ahead and remember if you have too many problems to handle try praying.or if that isn't your cuppa tea; try drugs.hear they're real fun!!

hahaa kiddin bt drugs ar!but i was serious abt the prayin bit.bye n God bless!

peace,im out
krystle eva -85-
:: krys Monday, August 04, 2003 [+] ::
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