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:: Saturday, May 10, 2003 ::

*yawn* hie.just woke up from a reeeally long nap.no,no..i think that length of a shut-eye is now considered hybernation!phwoar..damn shiok balls..k i think that person i was talkin abt is gonna be alright..i hope she is..it's mothers' day tomorrow..so to all my friends that are mothers'(hahaa) HAPPY MOTHERS DAY=) that includes u dad(retret)

well,i went to skool fer art just now..almost done with my filmin lahh..not bad but still lots to do..haiz,i think i dreamnt abt pris just now..im not sure though..o man..y'know,during june break..iv got art camp n catecism camp..n i bet my tuition will be jam-packed..n il have tonnes of hw..plus,il have to study fer pre-lims alredy...stress.stress..

im hungry.

what shall i wear fer church tomorrow ar?my black dress n knee high socks?jeremy's gonna call in a while..he called just now but deidre was using the phone..so ya la..

think i gtg offline soon..deidres' friends are startin to talk to me cos im using her settings n im not too keen with makin acquaintances rite now..k la..bye..

im out,
krystle eva -85-


:: krys Saturday, May 10, 2003 [+] ::
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hihie..listenin to retrets cd..jus put it in my playlist.brilliant.there's suede,john mayer n some other great songs..but got some rnb songs dat i nv heard of in my life..strange..

well,my question of the day is..*drumroll* FORGIVENESS.thats rite.i know,every good person should never stop forgiving someone else but what if your constant forgiveness leads to that person screwin up his/her life?quite sad.i know someone who seems to be really going on the wrong track.in fact,she doesn't even seem to be on a track..like a drifting lost amoeba.i wish i could help her but i dont know how to..she's an alcoholic n i want to tell everyone to just put her past behind n believe in her again but no one wants to acknoledge her..everyone seems to denounce her.i guess its like quite fair cos this is due to her own irresponsibility but i feel sad.

AAARGH..oy shit.a stupid bloody beetle just scared me balls..hahaa!!

jac is gonna help me with math on monday.yay.gd gd..as soon as i get my foundation strong,il excel fer Os..teehee..actually,i still am slackin..i think i give ppl e impression im studyin real hard..*laughs* soo..fer all hu think im like crammin fer exams..im not la..heehee..
bad one la.i just action studious so i can convince myself i did somethin productive fer dat day geddit?

ooo,ooo..i had loadsa fun at dance trainin today..been so long since i went.sir wasn't there though..we did move that body n den all of us were just freelance dancin lah..pel n me were doing MTVs n all.wad a blast with my ma..hahahaa

i got a netball team together man!!brill i tell ya..pel,jac,mich,stella,ler,mai,chups n myself..ooo i jus noe its gonna be heaps of fun..=)
din think abt pris as much as expected.prob cos i was super busy today..i do mis her tho..o well..

so excitin man.we are on e verge of discovery of hu hotstuff likes!!teehee..this term is just sizzlin with romance man!!eh juls if ya readin dis..ya betta tell me yep?hehe..which lucky chick ar?o talkin about CHICKS..i saw bellina at e 55 eunos bus stop.=i tot she n valerie patched but todae ler said valerie is wit hazel..soooo.i dunno.they seem to be switchin steads like i switch food at D corner..which btw was so rudely trespassed by a lot of girls today.we must have a plan to reclaim OUR territory.hehehe..kk think i should go bathe now..

n thanx fer e star mirror mich..luurve it..

im out,
krystle eva -85-
:: krys Friday, May 09, 2003 [+] ::
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its e wee hrs of e morn..i sooo should not be online but wtf..nvm..i have quite a bit of hw to do..but yet again..im jus slackin ard..muahaha.

back is hurtin badly..

found out somethin about deidre.hehehe..ok la,fine,i didnt find out. she told me..just wanted to pretend i discovered somethin new..=(
anyways,i can sabo her n start e wonderful process of blackmail.but,since im such an angel n all.i wun la..ah-bo-den.

kk gtg now..nitee-niite!
im out,
krystle eva -85-
:: krys Friday, May 09, 2003 [+] ::
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im baaaaaaaack.=] just got home frm skool.geez art is totally killing me!!*sobz* oh but i got 70/100 fer e CA paper..heeheee quite a gd one man..o well,the pretentious ppl around me seem to be increasing by the minute..i dun think i can trust most of them..how strange it is..i constantly feel threatened.wad a wuss.

called jeremy yest..quite ok la der fella.di said i should tell him im not interested but its like so bhb..sekali he says..'hu saed im interested in u??' malu sial!tried my best not to think abt pris today..but din really succed tho.still havin a reeeaL BAD HEADACHE..*ouchies* kk gtg alredy..lotsa hw to catch up on n i gotta go makan..ciao.i miss pris a lot :(

im out,
krystle eva -85-
:: krys Wednesday, May 07, 2003 [+] ::
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well..its the next day..
pris emailed me and i am upset.no point hiding it..you know,when you first get into a relationship u just dont want your partner thinkin ur a wuss so you pretend not to be upset[aka not having feelings] when he/she cancels a date or doesn't turn up for an important event? ya,im past that bit.no wait!actually i never started that bit..sufficiently showed her i was disappointed when we din spend nuf time alone as a couple.she must know i am a wuss then.hrmm.so id like to tell everyone i hurt like fuck right now..i miss pris a lot n i wish things were different for us..(the starbucks in tampines mall closed down)<--that was just some useful info to lighten up this entry..point is,she asked me to turn straight.yea the duh answer to my problem would be to take her advice right?well, its not as simple as that when you're completely loving the person and you know that the person loves you too..can you imagine how sucky my weekend was.after e 'date', i was about to cry on the busride home.and when i got home i did cry.that night actually reminded me that i didn't want some dickhead falling for me or holding my hand or any shit like that.i just wanted pris n the fact that we literally are miles apart kills me.and its not like a quick gunshot death..the realisation of my fucked up life without her sort of eats me up from the inside..bit..by bit..by bit..by bit..by bit..by bit..by bit...and even then the only thing gone would probably be e tip of my littlest toe..

o well [im not ok jus cos i said 'oh well' i action arty farty n type a one line paragraph..hehe success!!]

and what's up with me n guys sia?i dont even think i have one REAL guy friend n when i do meet someone he wants us to be more than that..geez.anyway,as i was saying yest..people change so quickly..i realise that you shouldn't ever completely trust someone else cos then you'll get really hurt when you get backstabbed or somethin..i hung out with xueling,xiuxiu,chups,bhavne,jesslyn,hotstuff,fiza,stella n mich..really fun that lot.then anju followed me to check out e cheerleadin tops..oh,yea when i got home i found out 'anil' called me but it was actually jeremy...how come ar?why guys don't understand that girls need their own space still is a mystery to me..aren't they the ones who invented the rubber-band relationship?so they should noe quite a lot abt personal space/time right?

priscilla tan can't fly for yellow house anymore cos a stupid pair of lads(why am i NOT surprised they were male...) dropped her during a full-ex..pissed.pissed.pissed.i swear,complacency is the no.1 killer in society today =(
:: krys Tuesday, May 06, 2003 [+] ::
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well..a new one this blog thing is for me.i questioned the reason for people using this.why would anyone want to share their secrets with the public?i figured it was because despite the fact that we need privacy,the knowledge that someone else knows about our problems might make us think there will be an increase in the chance of us getting help to solve them.how strange the way mans' mind works!

so,being the kind open soul that i am,here's an update on my day.kindly provided to increase your troubling thoughts today =)

life is very trying.(but im sure yall know that!) and people change with time..it is sad to see someone you thought you once knew morph before your very eyes..and you know she isn't changing for the better.i have seen lonely days but not as bad as this one.and wait!i know what you're thinkin.."i know just how you feel".you're wrong because no one will ever completely understand someone else..only God can do that.but i'll let u pretend we both are burdened by the same things..just because im nice.now tell me please,which is more painful,losing a friend to an enemy or losing a friend to a friend?

hahaa..just when i was reaching e climax of my story(oooh..),i have to rush off to tampines n pass marc his soccer boots..n the lad cleverly offers to buy me dinner just so he doesn't dwell in guilt about making me get ready in such a huff..o well, what are sisters for?

farewell

pris,wherefort art thou,pris?
:: krys Monday, May 05, 2003 [+] ::
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